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Sometimes during all of the crisis I feel triumphant and ready to conquer the day. Other times I feel numb and emotionless like a robot just putting one foot in front of the other, and still at other times I feel as though If I cry I might never stop. But I just stuff it all and be strong and carry on. I do it for the girls, for Kevin, for gramp Gary, and for myself. It's only after all the dust settles and Kevin comes home that I am able to break down, usually in the shower, so noone can hear me.

Isn't it Ironic

Feeling a bit like Alanis Morrissette! Just after I finally posted that Kevin was feeling better and life was beginning to return to normal.

Who would've thought... it figures

Kevin spent all of friday evening and all day saturday in bed with abdominal pain. Only to finally go in to the ER at around 10pm and then they ran some blood work and gave him some Barium to drink for a CT Scan at 2:30 am. He told the tech about his Renal failure and The docs decided to do the CT scan without the contrast injection. It was much too uncomfortable for him to have me sit on the bed with him, but after they gave him some dilaudid for the pain, he asked me to come up on the hospital bed to snuggle. We joked with the tech, that it was "Date Night" since we rarely get out without the girls. When they got the results from th ct scan, they decided to admit him at 5:00 am, I finally left the hospital to go home and take care of the girls. We had left them at our house in the care of my friend Michele and her mom Eileen, who have been my adoptive family out here in NY and have helped tremendously throughout Kevin's illness. When I got home the girls were still asleep with their friend Livy in the middle, my house was absolutely spotless and there were donut holes on my table. They are so good to us. They told me to go and rest and I was so exausted that I took them up on it. Then I woke up about an hour later and Grampa Gary, who comes over every sunday for church, was here, talking with Eileen and Michele. After he left they called my amazing neighbor and friend Karen over to help out. She shaved the dog for me on the back porch in this terrible heat and watched the girls so I could take a quick shower. There are definitely days I wish we lived closer to my family in Maine, but I am so incredbly blessed and thankful to have friends that treat us like family out here in NY. I would be lost with out them.

Thanks so much to all who have been praying also. We are so grateful and we know that God is listening.

Back Log & a Case of Cabin Fever

It's been a crazy winter full of sickness and yuckies over here @ Star Cottage. First we got Bronchitis which lasted over a month, then we had a stomach bug, and now Eden has the Flu. The Girls and I have, what's called Reactive Airway Disease due to the damage to our lungs from the bronchitis. So our Doctor put us back on the nebulizer until further notice. Going out in the cold really aggravates it, Kind of like asthma. So Needless to say, besides the the busyness of taking care of a sick family and cleaning the house, things have been fairly uneventful. We haven't been able to hang out with friends or do our normal outings, like swimming and working out @ the YMCA or going to the Library or even to Church, Kevin has even been doing the grocery shopping so I don't have to go out with sick kids. There isn't a whole lot to post about, and I am stuck in the house. So I am going to take advantage of this time and when I am not tending to the children I am going to be Back Logging and Finishing up some posts of all the fun stuff we did the past year. Other wise I might go crazy. Somehow looking @ all the pictures of us having fun in warmer weather makes me hopeful of spring, and helps me forget about being cooped up in the house.

Bronchitis for the Holidays

We are extremely blessed to have such good natured and easy girls.
Over the holidays we were all pretty sick and when the Dr said she was going to prescribe us all a nebulizer every four hrs, for our Bronchitis. I thought to myself. Well this ought to be fun, trying to get the Girls to use this, but it was our only hope. The Bronchitis was viral and the Dr couldn't give us any antibiotic. I was relieved that the Girls did such a good job. Eden wanted to sit in my lap and have me hold it she hates loud noises and was afraid of the motor. But she did it without a fight and Lily wanted to do it all by herself. She did a fabulous job, and we were so proud of her.

I hate seeing my kids suffer when they are sick, and it was tough to keep up with it all especially when I am sick and pregnant and not getting much sleep.

Praise the Lord, I am so glad it's over. It felt like it lasted forever.