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Sometimes during all of the crisis I feel triumphant and ready to conquer the day. Other times I feel numb and emotionless like a robot just putting one foot in front of the other, and still at other times I feel as though If I cry I might never stop. But I just stuff it all and be strong and carry on. I do it for the girls, for Kevin, for gramp Gary, and for myself. It's only after all the dust settles and Kevin comes home that I am able to break down, usually in the shower, so noone can hear me.

A Mom After God's Own Heart

Revisiting an old book I read @ the end of my pregnancy with Lily. It's amazing how much more of an impact it is having on me, the second time around. After all, I have two little ones now. The Author Elizabeth George shares the importance of filling the hearts of our children as well as ourselves with the Word of God throughout the day. Not only in reading, but in talking with them and sharing his love in our actions and incorporating it into our everyday tasks, just as the Hebrews did. It has been an encouragement as well as a challenge. I truly want to be the Mom my children need, the Mom God made me to be. But I can't do it alone, or in my own strength. It is only by the Grace of God, that I shall succeed.

Fools Rush In

This photo was taken by the Lovely and Talented Andrea of SgtandMrsHub .

Here is a link to her wonderful flickr page. For our Anniversary Andrea Blessed us with a fabulous photo shoot back in November @ the place we stayed for our honey moon. It was so gorgeous and romantical and we couldn't be more pleased with how the photos turned out. She is magical! And I can't imagine how I could ever repay her. And if that wasn't enough, one night when I showed up @ her house for a "Girls Night" she surprised me with a huge print of my favorite photo from the shoot. Yeah I cried. Kevin and I got married January 8th, 2005.
This is a totally weird bit of random but cool information, that I just found out today when I stumbled upon a blog I hadn't been to before, Dogwood Cottage. Elvis' Birthday is on January 8th, 1935. "Fools rush in", or "I can't help falling in love" by Elvis, was our wedding song. I first fell in love with the song and surfing, when I saw Blue Hawaii as a teenager. And the song was perfect for Kevin and I, because everyone thought we were fools for getting married after only dating for a few months. But we knew we were in love and we couldn't wait to be together, especially since we had been dating long distance. And here we are five years later, very happy these fools did rush in ;)

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Heather and Dan's Green Wedding Weekend Extravaganza Part 1

We arrived @ Heather and Dan's house pretty late thursday evening, after a long hr drive. It was so good to see them, we stayed up and hung out for a while. Then we were ready for bed. To our surprise Heather had turned her livingroom into a bed and breakfast. It was set up all nice and pretty and cozy. She bought new linens and the hugest most comfortable air matress I've ever slept on. It was high off the ground and totally didn't feel like an air matress at all. It fit Kevin, me and the girls and comfortably. We slept so good ;)
Then on Friday morning Heather and Dan treated us to The Friendly Toast in Cambridge, MA. I got the usual, chocolate chip pancakes. It brought back great memories of when Heather and I used to go to The Friendly Toast in Portsmouth, NH back in our college days.

Just look @ the Happy Couple. They are absolutely perfect for each other. God has blessed them both very much. ;)Later on we took Dan out for some lunch @ Spikes while Heather went to the salon and ran some errands. The guys stuffed their faces, the girls enjoyed chicken fingers, fries and onion rings & I ate a hefty Steak & Cheese sub. Yumm! Eden, being silly & letting us know her belly is full and she's all done ;)We definitely didn't have time to shop while we were in Boston, but if we did, I would have loved to stop in here. I took a couple of quick pics as we ran by.

We had to get back to Heather and Dan's house to get ready for the Rehearsal. It was so much fun meeting the wedding coordinator and the photographers. I was very impressed with their creativity & professionalism, yet they were incredibly funny & down to earth. They made us all feel really comfortable. After the rehearsal we went to for the rehearsal dinner. I tell ya, we were spoiled with so much eating out over the course of one weekend it was insane and yummy!

I want to move to Australia ;)

So many amazing crafters live there. And they have great surf. I used to surf a little before I got married and became Land Locked in Upstate NY. Ah I miss the ocean and I long to have a crafting/sewing group again. I want to move back home to Maine, but not sure that's going to happen. So how about Australia?!

Blog Clog!

I am in a bit of a Blog Clog! I have so much to post about that I am overwhelmed and my brain hurts just thinking about it, So bare with me and I will be up to date soon.

30!

I'm 30! And I'm actually excited about it. ;) I have been looking forward to my birthday, not because of presents or parties or anything like that, but because these are the best years of my life. Having a wonderfully handsome hubby, who I will be celebrating my five year anniversary with this year and raising our two amazing little girls together. My Life is in God's Hands. I am looking forward to what he has planned for me and my family, cause I know He's not finished with me yet. Life just doesn't get any better than this. With age comes wisdom and experience and fabulous memories. I am all for it.

Zuchinni Bread

Cooking is not a problem! I do not claim to be an expert, but I can handle the basics. My family eats pretty well and I make most everything from scratch. I don't do boxed or prepared foods. That is unless My sweet tooth Hubby goes shopping and that's all we have in the house. After all he was raised on mac & cheese and hot dogs. Old habits are hard to break. Especially those of the eating variety. But he is learning that all that stuff can kill you. So back to my story. Baking on the other hand, I find very intimidating. Scary even. I am not sure why. But I do. So when my neighbor handed me a huge zucchini I was delighted thinking I 'll make those fritters that Grandma Pam makes for the holidays. Mmmm tasty! Then my Handsome Hubby saw the Zucchini and quickly exclaimed. Mmmm zucchini bread! To which my stomach churned @ the thought of baking. Uggg! I thought. But I really wanted to bless my hubby, so I prayed, then I bit the bullet and made some yesterday. All the while being cheered on by my mom on the phone from Maine. While I griped to her that I was baking and trying to have a good attitude about it. She laughed.

I know I'm ridiculous! Especially since Kevin loved it! He said that I was great @ baking. And the girls gobbled it up too. Lily said I was a good cooker! It really wasn't that hard, I really don't know what I am so afraid of.

And guess where My Handsome Hubby is right now. He's @ the grocery store getting more ingredients so I can make it again tonight. lol

Laundry Up To My Eyeballs

Just an honest post, lest you think my house is always neat and perfect.

As you can see in the background my laundry is "outa control", my bedroom is a wreck and I'm still in my PJ's past noon.

Bloggy Break

I am in need of a little break. We are all OK. But things are a little crazy over here @ Star Cottage. Nothing catastrophic, just tons of little things all happening @ once.
I would like to take a break from life right now, but I have two darling little girls and an amazing hubby that need me.
I am so thankful for God's Grace and Mercy in our lives. And I'm needing and extra dose of it right now. I need to spend some time with HIM and my family.
I'll be back soon.
Blessings,
Molly

iHeartFaces- Hats

This is the first time we are playing iHeartFaces. http://www.iheartfaces.blogspot.com/ I am so not sure what I am doing here, so forgive me if I make a mistake. My Hubby took this picture of me, so I am not sure if this counts. He takes such lovely pictures. And since he has no blog of his own yet, I decided to enter this photo using mine. Maybe this will encourage him to start one. I have been pestering him to start an online journal as a treasure for our children. He has been living nearly 10 years with a heart transplant, and he has quite a story to tell. Hopefully he will write it all down someday. Until then I am trying to document our lives together as a family myself. However, I would really love to read about our lives in his words and through his eyes. Here is a glimpse of what he sees.

Adult Entry-This photo was from an earlier post.
Kevin took this picture last monday after we had finished our family bike ride.

Child Entry-The photo below was taken by me, in our front yard. Our now 3 yr old was just a baby @ the time. Time certainly does fly. Oh the memories. I love that face :)

Tax Time, so glad it's over!

So I haven't posted for almost a week, because I had to do my taxes. Yuck! Yes I am a huge procrastinator when it comes to paperwork. I know it's bad. I don't need a lecture. I already got one from every one I know. Paper work gives me anxiety. I'd like to take all my mail and I'd like to burn it all before it even gets through my front door. Ahh. I have dreams of paper chasing me down the street as I run away screaming. haha not really. But that is one area I just can't seem to manage. I could organize just about everything, exept papers. I love cleaning my friends houses and organizing closets etc. But put me near a stack of papers and I might break out in hives. My nightmare job would be a secratary. And I would be sitting behind a mountain of papers with lots of yucky coffee and messy hair. Haha
I'ts five in the morning and I can't sleep. I've been up since 3am because I heard my dog wretching and had to take care of her. I really hope she is ok.
I might as well get up and start my day. But blogging is so much fun :)

Social Recluse

I am a complete contradiction of myself. People call me a "social butterfly". There are times when I am very social and want to fill my calendar with plans with friends and family and just see and talk to everyone. Then there are times where I just want to take a big eraser and wipe my calendar clean and move away to the northern most point of Maine, by the sea, live off the land and not tell anyone I ever moved. I'd bring the Hubby and kids of course. I couldn't live without them. But seriously, What is wrong with me?

Glasses :(

Many of you may not know that I indeed, need glasses. And I have glasses... Do I wear them? No, I do not. I hate them, they are annoying. My hatred for glasses, may have all started back in elementary school, in fourth grade to be exact. I had pink plastic eyeglasses and, I was so embarrassed by them, that I lost them on purpose. Don't tell my mom, just kidding she reads my blog. I look like a librarian in glasses. Anyways I refuse to wear contacts as well. I can't touch my eyeballs. Ahhhh! Boy am I stubborn, and a little weird. Another thing I must work on! The stubborn part. Haha. I have grown to love the weird part. I think I will keep it.

I am trying to make some changes in my life and become more responsible, productive, organized etc. So in light of that, I should really start wearing my glasses. So I will start tomorrow by trying to get through a whole day with them on. Wish me luck. Yuck!

I can't sleep

I went to bed early tonight, because I hurt my back, but I woke up around 10:00pm and I have so many things racing through my head tonight, that I can't sleep. Too many to blog about. Must go to sleep and sort them out. Or write a list, thats a good Idea! I love lists they are one of my favorite things to do. And I love finding old lists. Oh! once I wrote a list of all the things I wanted in a relationship and what I wanted in a man, only to realize the guy I was dating for the past two years was absolutely none of those things and our relationship was lame. So I broke up with him. It was sad and I felt bad about wasting that time in my life, but I believe you grow and learn through every circumstance in life. So then I lost the list.......and time went by..... and I found it when my hubby and I moved into our new house after we had been married for 8 months and when I read it, the List was Kevin to a T. How weird is that? God is so good. Well I forgot about all that other stuff I was thinking about tonight, and my mind isn't racing anymore, so I guess I don't have to write a list tonight. I will just eat some icecream and go to bed. Good Night!

25 Random things about me.

25 random things about me. Don't ask it's a Face Book thing!

I am pretty Random, have ADD and I talk a lot, so this shouldn't be too hard. Wow thats 3 things already we are off to a good start.

4. I love being a mommy and I think the whole domestic thing rocks! It can be chalenging @ times but it's more rewarding than I ever could have imagined. I'm closer to my parents than ever before.

5. I am terrible @ math. And My husband is very patient with teaching me stuff. And I think it's pretty hot that he is so smart.

6. I love sparkly things glitter, jewelry, fake or real whatever I don't care.

7. I used to wear fairy wings, now I live vicariously through my little girls, and use them as an excuse to have tea parties and have a little childish fun. :)

8. I think ink blot tests are fun. It's like finding pictures in the clouds.

9. I actually met someone who talks more than me, and I love her.

10. I love watching my Hubby tear it up on the dance floor.

11. I used to have pink and blue hair. Manic Panic- "Atomic Turquoise" and "Hot Hot Pink" It looked like cotton candy. Wow, now I'm seriously thinking about dying it a crazy color again. I'm a stay @ home mommy why not?

12. I love to make funny faces and make my friends laugh. I do a great "Fire marshall Bill" impression, and used to do it when my best friend kate was sad, it made her laugh everytime. I used to do it in the mirror and make myself laugh, wait a minute I still do that. My Hubby likes to make funny faces too.

13. I'm a soup and sandwich girl. It's my favorite, feel good meal. I miss the "Loaf and ladle" and the "Purple Bunion" I mean "Onion".

14. I love Indian Food. I like to eat it and make it. Mmmm curry! Both my girls were eating indian food and chili by the time they were 4 months old, and they loved it.

15. I hate Sushi. I loved working @ Flat Bread, But putting seawead on salad has scarred me for life.

16. I'm lactose intolerant and worked @ Hodgies Ice Cream for 11 yrs. And ate lots of ice cream, and still do. lol

17. I don't like my food to touch and dream of having highschool lunch trays in a pretty china
pattern. Don't steal my Idea I am going to patent it. lol I am Absolutly positively OCD and a germaphobe and have been compared to Monk but It's getting better.

18. I absolutely love the ocean and feeling the sand between my toes, but not in my bathing suit.. I actually miss the smell of the marsh. I will probably miss the smell of cows if I move away from NY.

19. I hate tephlon and all that other nonstick junk. I like stainless steel pots and pans, because they can take a beating. Not to mention it seems that every time they try to create better things it causes cancer like fake sugar etc. I think technology causes cancer. But what can you do?

20. I am so blessed to have such great friends, and family.

21. I love to sew. And do crafts with my girls.

22. I used to be vegitarian and thought McDonalds was EVIL. Now I like it. Shame shame. lol

23. I Love flowery pretty princess names for little girls. I Liked the name Violet and various others, but Kevin didn't go for it. So I have a Lily and an Eden cause flowers grow in gardens. :)

24. I think it's important to be yourself, people like you better that way.

25. I am not perfect, I'm just forgiven, by the one who is. I Love Jesus!

26. I could go on forever, everyone secretly likes to talk about them selves, other wise there woudn't be so many BLOGS out there. lol

Love you all. Now tell me about you.