Isn't it Ironic

Feeling a bit like Alanis Morrissette! Just after I finally posted that Kevin was feeling better and life was beginning to return to normal.

Who would've thought... it figures

Kevin spent all of friday evening and all day saturday in bed with abdominal pain. Only to finally go in to the ER at around 10pm and then they ran some blood work and gave him some Barium to drink for a CT Scan at 2:30 am. He told the tech about his Renal failure and The docs decided to do the CT scan without the contrast injection. It was much too uncomfortable for him to have me sit on the bed with him, but after they gave him some dilaudid for the pain, he asked me to come up on the hospital bed to snuggle. We joked with the tech, that it was "Date Night" since we rarely get out without the girls. When they got the results from th ct scan, they decided to admit him at 5:00 am, I finally left the hospital to go home and take care of the girls. We had left them at our house in the care of my friend Michele and her mom Eileen, who have been my adoptive family out here in NY and have helped tremendously throughout Kevin's illness. When I got home the girls were still asleep with their friend Livy in the middle, my house was absolutely spotless and there were donut holes on my table. They are so good to us. They told me to go and rest and I was so exausted that I took them up on it. Then I woke up about an hour later and Grampa Gary, who comes over every sunday for church, was here, talking with Eileen and Michele. After he left they called my amazing neighbor and friend Karen over to help out. She shaved the dog for me on the back porch in this terrible heat and watched the girls so I could take a quick shower. There are definitely days I wish we lived closer to my family in Maine, but I am so incredbly blessed and thankful to have friends that treat us like family out here in NY. I would be lost with out them.

Thanks so much to all who have been praying also. We are so grateful and we know that God is listening.

Blog Clog!

I am in a bit of a Blog Clog! I have so much to post about that I am overwhelmed and my brain hurts just thinking about it, So bare with me and I will be up to date soon.

30!

I'm 30! And I'm actually excited about it. ;) I have been looking forward to my birthday, not because of presents or parties or anything like that, but because these are the best years of my life. Having a wonderfully handsome hubby, who I will be celebrating my five year anniversary with this year and raising our two amazing little girls together. My Life is in God's Hands. I am looking forward to what he has planned for me and my family, cause I know He's not finished with me yet. Life just doesn't get any better than this. With age comes wisdom and experience and fabulous memories. I am all for it.

Strange Love Language

You're are probably thinking, 'what is this silly girl taking pictures of an empty food container for? And why on earth would she be blogging about it, when there is plenty of other far more important and exciting things to write about.' Well, here it goes. I was in a HUGE Funk today, I mean HUGE. Grumpy and Blah! So there I was tidying up the kitchen, and feeling down right irritated, And then I noticed this clean empty container on the counter. You see, I pack my hubby's lunch in these, and he always washes them out @ work, and brings them home sparkling clean ready to be filled again. My day was immediately brightened when I saw the container. I thought of him & how much he loves me. Weird I know. But somehow this clean empty container was the love language I needed today. It spoke to me. My hubby likes my cooking and appreciates that I make him lunch. And is thoughtful enough to clean it out for me.

Hope you are all enjoying the summer and

Taking Joy in the simple things!

Blessings,

Molly

I'll Be Back!

This summer has been crazy busy. I look forward to catching up with all of you very soon. I hope you are all enjoying your time outside. The blog has been neglected. But, with nice weather and cute little kids to play with, how could I possibly stay inside staring @ this screen. I'll be back!
Sorry about the creepy picture of Arnold. I just had to.

Commenting Dilemma

Ever since my husband installed some parental control software a few weeks ago I have been unable to comment on some of your blogs. I have no idea why. I am very dissapointed. So I just wanted to let you all know that. I am still popping in to read, I just have no way of letting you know I stopped by. It seams that I am only able to leave a comment on blogs that have pop up window format for commenting. ;)

Good News & Bad News

First the good news: The Dryer is working again ;) My cousin Steven works for Maytag out in NH and heard about our troubles, so he walked Kevin through the fix over the phone. Praise the Lord!

Now for the bad news: My laptop is broken ;( My darling Eden, knocked it off my desk. I was very sad, not mad, she is only "a wee one" and it was an accident. I am praying I am able to retrieve the pictures off of the computer somehow. Ugggg!

Now we are down to one computer and it's in the basement. So my desire to sit down there and blog, is well, I just don't feel like it. It's much nicer in my comfy chair in my room, or on my bed.

But we sure have been busy with other stuff. I will try to blog more soon. I can't wait to check up on all of your blogs when I get a chance ;)

God Bless

Come and join me for some Humble Pie...

I've sure got plenty of it, and it really is quite Delicious once you get past the bitter taste of lost pride.

Where is this going I have no Idea, but I just had to write it all down.

We have been remodelling our house since we moved in, and it will be 4 yrs this August. I really can't wait to be done. In the mean time we have also had 2 lovely little children. We had both been Volunteering @ church weekly and Kevin works overtime off and on. He always works of course. I meant the overtime was off and on throughout the years. I tried out doing childcare, So needless to say we've been busy. And lately things have just been coming to a head and I have learned that we can't do everything and we both need to learn to say no. And need to ask for help myself sometimes. I never ask for help, and this week I got myself in over my head, and I just had to. I was very humbled and I was forced to have my friends see my house @ it's worst and me @ my wits end. And I don't like crying in front of people.

This week has been insane, my house looked like a tornado hit. So I decided it was a dip your candy bar in peanut butter kinda day. I was losing my mind. My house is not typically this chaotic. I am a pretty organized person, and have a routine that works for our family. But I decided to undertake a crazy project of clearing out our bedroom and closet and painting it all. And I thought I could do it all myself and still take care of my munchkins and house and everything would be fine. Just like me to bite off more than I can chew. I was so very wrong. I felt @ first that I shouldn't ask for help, after all, I got myself into this mess, I should be able to get myself out of it.

Like I said, I was trying to mud and paint the closet too. So Alllll and I mean allll of our clean clothes were in the dinning room, along with some furniture. Waiting to be put back in the closet. And of course I think this is the perfect time to sort them and donate what doesn't fit anymore. What a mess. Now they are on my bed.

And on top of all that the Dishes were piled up,

The computer broke and therefore no phone.

The dryer broke and it was -my fault, ugggg! I forgot to put the filter back in after I cleaned it out and it sucked up some socks. I tried to turn it on last night and it revved like an engine and just burned out.

So needless to say the dirty clothes were piling up fast, I was trying to hang what I could but the pollen has been insane and my allergies are so bad my eyes are all swollen and I haven't been able to wear mascara for a month and I was told I look like a reptile or a turtle by more than one person. So I really don't want my clothes pollinated right now. And it's bad enough that I have the windows open so that the paint will dry.

And then my husband calls today and says "I invited my friend from work over and I completely forgot about it, is it OK if he still comes over for dinner tonight."

I said "Sure, just tell him the house is a mess and it might be a leftover smorgasbord tonight."

I am not upset with my hubby @ all I am just overwhelmed with my situation.

It has been crazy. The last time I had taken a Bloggy break, only a few weeks ago, our hot water heater broke and flooded the basement and our plumbing went @ the same time and there was raw sewage all over the laundyroom/bathroom and all over the clothes and the raw sewage was backed up into the shower. So for a week no one could take a shower cause there was no hot water and in the middle of all that it smelled like poopy in our house and then Hailey ran away remember. And every night Kevin was downstairs working on trying to fix everything. I helped with the nasty parts and did all the sanitizing, as I was worried about germs, being that he has a Heart transplant and a lowered immune system. What a nightmare. But we didn't ask for help and a friend told me stuff like this would happen until we learned to humble ourselves and just ask for help. And I didn't even tell church, when they called to ask if I could make a meal for a family in need, I pretended everything was ok and made the meal and "just kept on truckin'." I should have said no. But I have this horrible feeling that I always have to rise to the occasion and "just deal with it" and "do what I've gotta do" "I can handle it" and "be the strong one" and "serve serve serve" "I am the helper" I love being the one to help and come to the rescue. But, I need to learn to receive. I have such a hard time with that. I am prideful and I never thought I was. I really don't think I am better than anyone else. I love helping people and have a heart for the sick and the hurting and the poor. Gosh we have been there for sure. But we never let on. I never thought it was pride, I never wanted anyone to feel bad for us, and never wanted to be a burden. But I realized I don't see people as a burden when I help them, I am truly blessed to help. So why would they see me as a burden when they help me.

So I am ever so thankful for great friends who have come to the rescue this week, I have truly learned God is ever so faithful. And again just because you need help doesn't mean you are a failure or a burden. Thank you Bethany for helping me prime on Tuesday and for the leftover paint. Thank you Michelle for helping me paint on Tuesday & Wednesday and providing direction to my scattered brain. Thank you Jen for helping me tidy up the place today, bringing dinner and snacks and taking my laundry. I don't desrve it.

And God bless you all for listening to me yap and helping me regain my sanity, or whats left of it.

I will post pictures of the finished room very soon.

Painting Like A MAD Woman!

Be back soon. I just gotta get this done. I'm am the messiest painter in the world. Pray for me. My floors are totally disgusting with paint and so am I. I looked in the mirror and said "Hey I thought I did my roots already?!". And what I thought was grey hair was actually white paint streaked through. Nice....real nice. Hope you are all enjoying the beautiful weather. I will check up on all of you as soon as I get back.

Tutaloo

And by the way how do you spell that?

Garden Backlog

I am trying to catch up I promise.

I have been taking a break from my gardening as well my blog, not because I want to, but because I simply have been too busy with life. However, I have gotten the chance to step out and take some pictures, here and there. Some of my flowers have already come and gone, and others are just blooming. And since I want to document when they are blooming etc. so I can better organize and plan my gardens next year. And just because I am OCD and hate when things are out of order. So I will be posting them according to the date the pictures were taken. I will also try to add notes about what I should do differently next time around. As I still have much to learn about gardening.
Oh and Please ignore the weeds. I am going to try to do some weeding and tidying up, as soon as both the weather and my schedule clears up. I am embarrassed to say my grass is out of control, so my yard looks like a field right now. I wonder what the neighbors think, just kidding they are all my friends and know life is crazy busy right now. And my laundry, well we just won't go there.

I want this site to be more organized and easier to navigate than the last one. You will be able to see all my garden posts by pressing the "In the Garden" button on the right hand column. Be sure to check out the other buttons too. There will be lots more. I am still adding labels to old posts and I will work on publishing all my unfinished posts as soon as I get a chance.
I have to post about our recent trip to Maine. And I still haven't posted those Easter Photos I promised. Sorry Mom. :( I start them and then something comes up that I have to tend to.
I miss you all.
Blessings,
Molly

Moms need a Lunch Break Too!

I'm a WAHM and Not SAHM because in reality taking care of children all day is a lot of work. And it is my Job. I am so blessed to be with my girls. And I believe we all deserve a Lunch Break! However short it may be.

So Nap/Quiet time is my lunch break. When it was just Me and Lily @ home during the day, I would nap with her or take a break and read. Then after Eden came along, I found that two was more hectic and in the beginning they didn't nap @ the same time. So I didn't really get a break during the day. I was pretty wiped out chasing a toddler and nursing nonstop. Then the glorious day came when The Girls started to nap @ the same time. It was wonderful. So I used that time to tidy up the house and get some extra things done. Then Lily kind of started to grow out of Naps. If she had a nap, she wouldn't fall asleep @ bed time. So we gave her quiet time instead. I had used it as valuable time with her, we would work on some preschool without Little Eden getting into the middle of everything, or we would read together, or she would even help mommy fold laundry. But now Eden likes to join in the homeschooling and actually has more of an attention span than I had thought. She loves to color and craft with us. She sings her ABC's though you can't understand every letter. or she plays quietly while we work on stuff. So I have decided to reclaim N/Q Time for myself. Now it is My Time to be with the Lord or to read a book and sip some tea, blog, or to take a nap myself. Wow, I can't believe what even just a half an hour break can do for my brain and my mood. I have been so refreshed this week. And a lot less grumpy. Yes, I get grumpy. Who doesn't. Just thought I would share. :)

An Unexpected Guest

I know it has been a week since I posted, but the flu came for a visit. She popped in on Saturday unannounced. She overstayed her welcome, she had no regard for anybodies feelings, and left a huge mess behind. Oh the nerve! She took off on Wednesday. And I've been picking up after her ever since.
So I apologise for the Lack of posts. I'm hoping that by tomorrow I'll be back on track :)

My Thoughts On Meatballs

I love a good meatball sub, and love big old meatballs in my spaghetti. That being said, I think they are a lot of work, and a pain in my heiny. I prefer to make meat sauce. I scramble up the beef and brown it in a fry pan then I add it to my own sauce. And Viola! No body fights over the meatballs and the men can't hog them all. There, I got it off my chest. Funny, the really stupid things that can make a mommy frustrated. lol Thanks for listening.

Molly Was Here

The map @ the bottom of my Blog says that lots of people are visiting. But I have only gotten a few comments. :( When I visit blogs I like to comment. It's like writing on a wall or carving on a picnic table. Molly was here. And it's nice to let people know you like their Blog too.

Electronics

I have a love hate relationship with electronics. My laptop has been broken for some time now. So I am forced to use the "big box" (desktop) in my office, which makes posting etc. a little more difficult, as I cannot multi task now that I am tied to my desk. I have a hard time sitting still. I can't wait to get a new laptop. But I also want a new camera. We still don't have one. We just don't have the money to be buying anything right now, and refuse to put it on an Evil credit card. It is killing me that I can't take pics of my girls. :( So sad. We lost our camera back in November, along with our Camcorder and all our memory cards. I think it was stolen out of our car actually during the Thanksgiving festivities. I had packed it up to go visit grampa. Stinking teenagers. We live in a very nice neighborhood, but lately people have been reporting theft. Mostly out of their cars, yards and mailboxes. Uggg.

Excuses Excuses!

As you may have noticed we still haven't bought a new camera yet. They are so expensive, we want to make sure we are going to be happy with what we get, and we would like to save up for one, so we are not puting it on a credit card. We have no credit card debt. Praise the Lord! And would like to keep it that way. So that being said, the blogs as of late have been a little boring I know. I love taking pictures and often Pictures are my inspiration and topic for my blogs, so bare with me. I have been taking this time to blog about the tips and tricks I have learned over the years, about keeping house, and life in general. I would love to post the craft projects I have been working on and happenings with the my hubby and our two little ones, but alas it will have to wait.

Sorry No Pictures

I won't be able to post any pics for a while. Our video camera and Digital pic camera were either lost or stolen. We haven't been able to find our camera bag since Thanksgiving. We are so bummed, so in the mean time we are researching digital SLR's. Although they are kind of pricey, you can't put a price tag on great memories caught on film. We are leaninng toward Cannon. As I had a Cannon Rebel back in the day when I worked @ Ritz Camera in NBPT and I was pretty pleased with it. I Would love to hear about your experiences with different brands etc. So any feedback would be appreciated.